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A silly note

Oleh

You're the one who started reach me again after all the silence

You don't know how I tried to mute any things related to you

I was successfully working on that, although my mind was never failed to remember you

Turns out, the first message you sent after a long-break, was mean nothing

You wanted something from me, you get it, and that's all

Well, I knew, but I just let it happened

I was happy for that short time we spend together, a very short time~

Then I completely lost myself trying to understand what was just happened

I want to erase all memories, to erase you from my life, completely, without any single trace

But again, it would just be a waste of time

The harder I try to forget you, the more I'll remember you

So, tell me, what should I do?

When all I want is you

When all I want to do is reach you out

When all I want to do is to be with you

When all I want to do is seeing you

But you don't want anything about me, at least from what I know so far

I have told you how I feel about you, I dared myself to confess that I like you

And I knew exactly what your answer would be at that time, I was and wasn't prepared at the same time

It's so pathetic that I manifest you on my mind, a small and fragile place

What I want?

I want to be happy, with or without you

It's just a silly note, after many times of hurtful feelings I earn by thinking about you.

I wish nothing, but the best, for me, of course.

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